That Frankl quote hits hard, Rachel. The "space" between stimulus and response. In my world... we usually call that latency. And we try to eliminate it. But you're arguing for adding latency. A manual override to stop the autopilot.
You talk about "hacking through a jungle" to change the path. That is visceral. It feels like trying to rewrite the firmware while the machine is still running at max RPM. Most people just let the legacy code run because it's safer. It offers certainty.
But here is the thing... You mentioned a longing to let go of control. To let others help. In my novel... the protagonist takes total control because the external systems failed. He becomes the single point of failure. So I'm wondering... when you finally hack that new path and drop the defenses... does the system actually stabilize? Or do you find out those walls were load-bearing?
(My new serialized novel, The Man Who Blocked The Sun, follows a diabetic engineer who hacks the climate because the treaties are too slow. It'd mean the world to me if you'd join to follow the work.)
Oof the core belief you mentioned here may well be one of mine. I feel like I need to always present strength, so I too struggle to ask for help. I have much to work through, but your post was beautiful to read, as always <3
That Frankl quote hits hard, Rachel. The "space" between stimulus and response. In my world... we usually call that latency. And we try to eliminate it. But you're arguing for adding latency. A manual override to stop the autopilot.
You talk about "hacking through a jungle" to change the path. That is visceral. It feels like trying to rewrite the firmware while the machine is still running at max RPM. Most people just let the legacy code run because it's safer. It offers certainty.
But here is the thing... You mentioned a longing to let go of control. To let others help. In my novel... the protagonist takes total control because the external systems failed. He becomes the single point of failure. So I'm wondering... when you finally hack that new path and drop the defenses... does the system actually stabilize? Or do you find out those walls were load-bearing?
The first episode is live here... https://silentwitnessin.substack.com/p/file-001-the-thermodynamic-bluff?r=6r3orq
(My new serialized novel, The Man Who Blocked The Sun, follows a diabetic engineer who hacks the climate because the treaties are too slow. It'd mean the world to me if you'd join to follow the work.)
Oof the core belief you mentioned here may well be one of mine. I feel like I need to always present strength, so I too struggle to ask for help. I have much to work through, but your post was beautiful to read, as always <3
Thank you Melissa-Jane ❤️ we all have much to work to do but knowing it is the first step.
Thank you, Regina ❤️