My Manifesto 2012
The North Sea
As I stare at the north sea, I wonder, wow, how many seas are there in
this world? I have my fair shares of sea, as I for one loves the
ocean. I awe in its grandeur, I calmed at its gentle waves that
caresses the shore endlessly. If one thing in life is constant, is
that the sea will always rush to shore. If only our lives can be
almost this permanent.
Life is fleeting. It is light. The unbearable lightness of being. Does
the lightness makes it more meaningful or less?
We cannot choose how we are born, but we can choose how we die.
There are so many seas left I have yet to see, such is the vastness of
the world, and I have yet to even mention the universe.
Suddenly I felt so much less important. And that is a good thing. It
taught us that nothing is permanent, and we should appreciate every
single moment that we have and let it go when it’s time. Everything
has its place and time, we are merely passing through. Now is all we
have, so enjoy the now we shall.
Life is amazing.
Chocolate, Beer, Waffles, Chips, Pissing Boy and a Grand Place @ Brussels, Belgium
Sitting here staring at the grandeur of grand place on Brussels, having waffles just because it’s Belgium and of course my important coffee of the day is indeed relaxing. Now I’m starting to consume this place. And I just love the building at the background, it’s somewhat grand yet humble and comforting, thus my choice of slow breakfast in view of it.
Before this I just had a hot ale to warm me up, I didn’t know that hot alcohol can be so tasty! Definitely good for a cold wintery day. I’ve definitely sin enough in terms of food and drinks in Belgium. I had waffles during mid morning on the way in the train. Then my ‘lunch’ was copious amount of fries drenched with ketchup, mayo and sour onions. Then I had a tour at a beer factory which ended with beer tasting for the traditional and the one steep with fruits. Not to mention the in between tastings of chocolate, chocolate and more chocolate. After that dinner was fried mussels swimming in butter and lemon finished off with a brune beer, hey we are in Belgium after all. Before retiring, I head out in search for a hot cup of chocolate, and hey we are still in Belgium after all.
Oh and of course the pissing boy. What? Yes the boy who piss. He’s known as Manneken Pis. Apparently he is the icon here and your visit is not complete without searching for him and act surprise finding him so small a statue yet so big in fame. I think it’s the absurdity of it that makes it so famous. Lucky me I caught him in of his outfits day, and this time he is happily dress in hip-hop style and pissing away ‘cool-y’
That about sum up Belgium – beer, chocolate, waffles and fries. They lay claim to all those, either being the inventor or at least the connoisseur of it. And then the grand place and the pissing boy. How else can a place be eh?
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Turns out there can be much more to a place. I took my time wandering around today and leave it to serendipity. I chance upon a beautiful cathedral, which turn out to be notre dame again (because notre dame in Paris was my favourite) and I sat through a Sunday mass. Even though I didn’t understand a word of it (I think it was conducted in French), the atmosphere and the environment made up most of it. It’s was solemnly beautiful.
After that I continue to wander on and came upon a little park which I get to see a superbly excites Siberian husky jumping into the fountain despite that it was freezing cold! Then on the way back I chance upon musee of fine arts and end up spending few hours there.
Ah turns out my art taste is a little strange. I like arts that are chaotic and in cross between the real and fantasy. In contrary I also like arts that are simple and bare and left spaces for the imagination to fill up. And here is where I also find out (my first encounter of it’s kind) is that I like surreal art. It’s almost like the earlier mentioned cross of life and fantasy, surreal is a cross of reality and dreams.
All in all, Brussels may not be love at first sight for me, but I have grown fond of it in a way. Indeed like everything in life, it takes time to understand and appreciate something or someone. So don’t always live life in a rush, sometimes we got to go slow to go deeper, which will make our light and fleeting life somewhat heavier and definitely much more meaningful.
Happiness is….
first cup of coffee in the day
finishing a good book
frozen yogurt
finding forgotten money in your pocket
guzzling clean water
feet hitting the ground
smiles from strangers
hugs from a dear friend
greetings of good morning
stargazing
adoration from a little kid
making something good from your kitchen
engaging conversations
bittersweet dark chocolate
moonlight
rolling under the duvet
humming to good music
pouring rain when you are about to sleep
a random parking spot waiting for you
fresh wind blowing in your face
a hot bath at the end of the day
Discrimination, Sex and Drugs @ Amsterdam, Netherlands
Amsterdam, oh, Amsterdam. Mention the name and all people could think of is all the vices – sex, drugs and alcohol.
Indeed it was true to some degree, but what was most memorable in my first time there was in quite the contrary. It was Anne Frank’s house. Anne was a Jew during the Nazi time and hid in that house with her family. While in hiding, she wrote in her diary, collecting thoughts and many insight to what was happening and how Jew feels, a teenage one in hiding that is. I can feel for her because I am a writer myself, and finally when I learnt that their location was compromised and she finally died in the concentration camp (her dad was the only survivor), I almost teared. Anne Frank’s house aim to teach about discrimination, and yes it is still very rampant in the world right now sadly.
But yes, the vices. You would not be happy if I didn’t mention that part of my experience don’t you? Well I traverse the red light district, letting you guess it, the red lights guiding me. In between small street red lights glow and people throng through it, most in hope to glimpse the pretty ladies dancing in full display (mostly on bra and panties that glow under the red ultraviolet light), while some hope to get lucky behind drawn curtains. I actually walked pass a man trying to haggle with a lady using sign language through the window. What bothers is the lady was genuinely aghast at the price he is offering while he kept insisting with a lustful face. How can you put a price on a lady? I guess we’ll have to ask a man for that. Hah.
Also the drugs, yes the drugs. Knowing me I would certainly want to try it for curiosity sake, but no way am I trying it myself alone in Amsterdam. So I randomly bought a tub of cannabis cookies, tried one back at the hotel, end up too sleepy to wait for the effect to kick in (if there would be any) and end up just having a sound sleep (not sure from exhaustion or the drugs). Later on I learn from a friend who tried that these cookies/cakes are not strong enough, I should have went for the magic mushroom. Ah, maybe next time, and there will be more tales for another day.
Amsterdam, a place where the old (architecture wise) and the new (people and activities wise) meet is definitely a good mix of everything I must say. As for now, as I have only cover like a third of it, I will definitely be back, for Van Gogh museum and the magic mushroom, not necessarily in that order.
Bike, Windmills and the Dutch Life @ Cycling from Rotterdam to Kinderdijk, Netherlands
As my friend said, I’ve lived the ultimate Dutch life. I cycled for 5 hours yesterday, covering from Rotterdam central station to Kinderdijk and back, including taking bike up a ferry across at the end. Jup (yes for Dutch), if that’s the ultimate Dutch life, I have enjoyed it indeed.
Cycling all the way I was never lonely, there were many people cycling from everywhere to everywhere, we smile and we say hi occasionally, though I notice I’m the only weird Chinese, or even tourists, doing it. The bike routes are well linked, and if you ever want to cycle around cities and villages, Netherlands is definitely the place to do it.
While I keep riding and riding, occasionally stopped to see the map and to take pictures, the reality hit me that it is actually quite far. Then there was only one single thought in my mind halfway through, “How am I getting back??” Well yes I could cycle back but I do dread it, where I even considered to hitchhike. Buy anyway, after 5hrs of cycling, looking back it had indeed been something. I rode through city, then passed the huge river, hike across the giant bridge (it feels like giant when you’re on a bike), then through a factory area, pass a little park, then through villages to villages, one which reminded me of my godsis’s village back at UK, while another like a row of cottages overlooking the prairie and finally reaching the river crossing with ferry. Oh boy, I rejoice when I saw it. Kinderdijk itself wasn’t much except for many windmills that are not working and lots of winds of course to add on to my cold misery.
My friend asked me at the end of the day, through time and space differences via whatsapp (we live in amazing times indeed), what was most memorable for me that day. I thought for a bit and one thing that came first to my mind was the crazy coldness. I was chilled to the bones while cycling, the wind was strong and adding on with my cycling through it, it was indeed like slicing through ice. But all I can do is curse the wind, wish for the sun, curse myself for not dressing adequately and keep asking “Why am I doing this again?” Oh I love to ask myself that question, a lot. Cause whenever looking back after it’s all been cursed and done, you’ll see why and it would all be worth it.
Mind you the windmills were alright, lots of them, non working, line up along the rivers and fields, and of course the wind, it’s times 10 for the wind there, after all that is a location for windmills right. As I told a friend just now, man made things die (like the windmills) but nature never dies (like the wind kept on blowing). But in the end, what makes the whole trip worth it was the journey of getting there, then exploring it and coming back, all on two wheels.
As I always say, “It’s the journey that counts”
Tram No. 9 @ The Hague, Netherlands
I’m standing here under the little rain and think wow, I am in a foreign land alone (right now at least), feeling the place engulfing me. Tram no 9 is nowhere to be seen, most people huddled at the stop while the rest of us just bath in the rain, but we all wondered the same thing “where is the tram?”. On the opposite lane, two tram no 9 has passed us by, but our side’s is still nowhere to be seen. We are all in this together. We all just want to get to somewhere. Few of us had step out one by one to stare down the tracks towards the horizon hoping for a glimpse of the tram.
Then the tram came. We all shuffled in gladly. Out of the rain, finally on our way.
I stared out the window, while clinging to the pole, balancing on heels and a heavy bag. I see cyclists, many of them, and wish I have the same independence as them.
A tall lady just got in from a stop, she’s sharing the same pole as me who is at least one whole head taller than me, and I’m on heels remember? Well at least we are both staring at the phone (yes I’m writing on mine right his moment), but there’s were our similarities end.
Announcement for central station. Almost everyone got ready to go down, including my tall companion. I have two more stops to the hotel. I stared out, the rain has stopped, I smile.
Finally it is my stop. I got down from tram no. 9 and slowly make my way back to the hotel. I listen to my own steps pounding the gravel while consuming the lights and sights around me, once again letting the place engulf me.
C’est La Vie
Sometimes we don’t know what we are doing. Sometimes we know what but we don’t know why. Sometimes we know why but we don’t know how.
Life is such. Such is life.

Girl at the Window @ Salvador Dali
Enthusiasm, Passion and Work

Enthusiasm
Waking up early Saturday morning after a girl’s night out was definitely no easy feat. I am one who are well known for sleeping in by her friends who knew it is impossible to call her out for breakfasts. So this is what it is like doing something you are passionate in. It is something that makes you jump out of bed in the morning, regardless that you are still very cranky and your body is asking for some rest. You would get prepared with a jig, you walk with a spring in your steps to your car and you drive peacefully to where you would need to be. And then you just be. You’re at peace where you are, you couldn’t be happier, this is where you should be right this moment, right this place and this is what you should be doing, and you do it with full enthusiasm.
Passion
Is this what we all should seek out in our lives? Or is it totally overrated? Passion is what people say you can know deep down inside you and you do it with enthusiasm day in day out consistently. Is that true? I myself don’t know. I kind of know my passions, yes there is a ‘s’ there, but I have yet to experience the enthusiasm lasting day in day out the same for years. Mine you I still love to do what I do, and I still do them regardless of results or objectives. It is good to find one’s passion, because when you do something with all your heart, even if your mind do not understand why it would not matter. You do just because you wanted to and you enjoy it tremendously. And what is life without enjoyment?
Work
But back to my question of what really is passion? What is it that everyone keep saying we need to find and do what we are passionate in so that we don’t have to work a day in our lives? After so many years of searching and wondering, I realize that that notion is quite overrated itself. We all have to work, like it or not. Working on something you are passionate in just allow you to like it. But it is still work. We still have to put food on the table. We still have to be self sufficient. We have to be responsible to people we care about, who cares for us and most of all to ourselves. When we do something, we should do it with not only our heart (where passion comes in) but also with integrity, hard work and due diligence. And all these combined are what we call work.
My enthusiasm, my passion and my work
As you know, due to my five years itch, I have given myself a sabbatical of sorts, one where there is no end date. Not many people can live with such uncertainty but I for one actually am reveling in it. While I was looking out for my next gig, I actually have quite a lot of time unwinding down from my trip (a blessing in disguise in retrospect), and most important of all I get to try out an interest of mine in a work perspective. Getting to know all that’s going on behind the scene makes one know what does one really wants in compare to what it really is. Regardless, I am truly happy in doing what I am doing. I choose to be where I am, no external circumstances got me into it. With that I am happy enough to know. It dawn on me suddenly just now, in the midst of baking and my hands all covered in cream and dough, is that I would still be here right now at this moment even if suddenly I have billions in my account. And that my friend is how I want to keep going in regards for my enthusiasm, passion and work. If it all aligns, living became meaningful and happiness is you.
Attachments, People and Couchsurfing
I realize that couchsurfing is indeed a special way of its own in terms of independent traveling. It is indeed more than just saving some money while backpacking, which most people think. It includes many other things and one I love most is the human interaction.
The whole cycle itself is an experience. It started from going through profiles to see which would suit yours as well as theirs. Then it is the anticipation to see who would respond to your request, not only whether your profile match them, it is also about availability of the person at your request dates. After that would be the anticipation of how it would turn out to be. Then it will in the end, so far in my experiences, turn out with the feeling of having made a new friend, some ‘heavy-heartedness’ during the farewell and most of all a deep sense of gratitude.
From couchsurfing, I learnt about attachments. About how we human get attach to things easily, especially on human interactions. I learnt to experience and immerse in every moment as it is, appreciate every little things and when the time comes, learn to let it go. For some things that we cannot repay, pass it on, and as for ourselves we can etched them in our wall of memories as something fond to gaze upon time and time again.
Talking bout these reminded me of my time in the Philippines, where my three months stint can be summarized into one thing – my experiences with the people. Yes I enjoy the hustle and bustle of the city, the cooling mountains and the beautiful beaches. But until now, looking back, it is those moments with my friends that made me smile the most.
Although I do love my moments of solitude and contemplations, I cannot deny I enjoy the company of people. Sometimes, it is the people that makes something or some place meaningful.










